I also resent it, now. Having to leave him, when there were still moments I could have had with him. It chafes. That time with him was precious and that some of it was wasted genuinely irks. I understand why, I understand that logistically you can’t have parents room in in NICU. But fuck me. Being apart because of logistics was HARD.
There’s something to be said for throwing my feelings at the internet. For sharing my feelings so honestly. There are probably healthier (less public) ways of managing grief, but god. I miss him on my feed. I miss thinking about his future and what I can do for now and I didn’t realise how much of a drive that was in my day to day. Without it, without him, my days are less. There is less purpose to my days, now. 💔
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